… and my mind.
I had a really eye-opening moment the other day, about just what I allow into my subconscious mind.
For as long as I can remember, I’ve been fascinated with divination. Tarot cards and horoscopes have always held a special interest for me. I guess it’s because I don’t really like surprises all that much. I want to know what’s going to happen, and when — not so much so that I can change it — but because I don’t like not knowing.
So the other day I was reading my horoscope and it said that my financial success would be delayed until 2009. And my first thought was “oh great, another 2 years before I actually get out of this mess.”
Seriously.
I was ready to own that statement as my reality, without even trying to change things. I’ve always thought of myself as a reasonably intelligent person, but really… how stupid is that?
And with a little more reflection, I made my way back to a tarot card reading I had done in the mid-1980s. So you can imagine my shock and horror at the last 20 years of said stupidity as I realized that whether consciously or not, I had been living my life in a way that made all her predictions come true.
I was totally amazed at how much power I had given over to the diviners and their systems. And in all honesty, I probably would still be sitting here doing the same thing if it hadn’t been for a recent June Campbell article on what gets into our subconscious mind and sticks there.
The thing that really ticks me off is that I know better. I know that, for tarot cards especially, nothing is written in stone. It’s only a representative of what could happen as of that particular moment, and anything you do from that point on can change the outcome. So why I allowed myself to assume that reality for all these years, is really beyond me.
Now that I’ve had my wakeup call, it’s time to take responsibility for my heart and mind, and the actions I take from this moment forward. And the first step in doing that is to clear the clutter from the closet of my subconscious. Maybe then I can open myself up to allowing the real changes I want to see in my life… not a change that’s based on memories of a reading done more than 20 years ago. And whatever happens, I can tell you one thing for sure… I will not be sitting around waiting for another 2 years to make my dreams my reality.
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Hi Ruth, Thanks for commenting on my article and I’m glad it was helpful. You’re not alone. I also came to understand that at some level a horoscope reading had greatly influenced me. It wasn’t even a customized reading, just one of those newspaper things. Man oh man ….
Hi June,
You’re very welcome. It’s pretty scary when you stop and think about what is really happening. I get my horoscope delivered by email every morning, and until I read your article it was the first thing I’d read when I got up. I can only sit here in amazement now at how much I let those few lines of text shape my days for so long.