Just Ruthie

I’ve been in such a funk lately. It’s been at least a month since I’ve written anything other than the occasional tweet, and almost two since I’ve shown my face around here. I haven’t even looked at any of my sites or blogs in that time. And that’s definitely not a good thing.

In that time I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about where I want to end up, and what I want my life to look like when I get there. And there are three people who I’d like to publicly thank for giving me the courage and strength to not only step out of the shadows again, but also for helping me to reach a decision on how my future online is going to look.

First, I need to say thank you to Dr. Mani for being a beacon of uniqueness in a sea of conformity that is internet marketing. I want to be like him when I grow up! (Yeah, I know I’m supposed be grown up already.) His posts awhile back on being real and identity are what started me thinking about all of this, and made me realize that it’s okay to be myself.

My second vote of thanks goes to Merlene Paynter for her honest and heartfelt post on what it feels like to be stuck. She gave me hope and comfort without even knowing it because reading her words was like reading my own story from the past 10 years, and it was just nice to know that I’m not the only one who feels like this and doesn’t like it much.

And finally, John Delavera gets a really big vote of thanks for having the uncanny ability to write exactly what I need to hear in the moment that I need to hear it. I’ve been a member of his turbo membership for over a year now, and can honestly say that it is his posts and his unwavering support for the members that have kept me going more than once when I felt like giving up. Yesterday’s post was just one more example — but it’s the one that started me writing again on all that I’ve been pondering and processing during the past quiet months.

So is there a point to all of this? Probably not, other than to say that I’m back and stepping out of the shadows once again. Who knows for how long this time? For sure long enough to say thanks to those who, even though they don’t know me, acted as a catalyst for my actions simply by sharing their own words.